My chud life story, like last month i told my crush i liked her, and got blocked & unfollowed on instagram, and then her older brother blocked me & unfollowed me on instagram too

today during 1st period she asked me if i wanted to be in her group for a class project (me, her and her friend), which is weird because if you don’t even think of someone as a friend, why would you invite them to your group

i know just because someone is nice, doesnt mean they dont hate you, but its like she could of just not said anything, but she might just be trying to move past the akwardness, but idk what to do, if i just avoid, it will probably make me look depressed, but if i try to be nice, it will look like i still have a crush on her, which i dont, i moved on, im trying to just forget it happened.

Back when i was in highschool i used to be shoved in lockers and asked for my school food which i provided to them because i was nothing
but a wimp and a loser i couldnt stand up for myself and if i did i would get hit by big meanies so now i sit at home all day playing osu
gooning to online women who dont even know of my existence, i really want to know what would happen if i didnt become this way. Its bad enough i have 2 full size anime girl body pillows which i jump and play with all night and roleplay acting like its my real life wife.
Some of my cousins even dont like speaking to me either or i even get invited to stuff they just see me as a stupid fat chud which im only 400LB shouldnt be a problem of my weight size, they dont like speaking to me, inviting me to things, or just hanging out in general. Im like the odd one out of my family, often times when they come over to my (mothers) house they dont care to step down in the basement where i reside, i like to call it “ahem” bat cave :fire_emoji:, they dont care to step into it because they dont have a reason to they dont know how to conversate with me and i dont blame them, i dont know how to talk to people i stutter really bad only thing im good for is games lol .

I often realize why people start to hate me im 5″1 mexican with 135.56$ to my name i smell like shit and i dont eat healthy i thing maybe because im allergic to fruits and healthy thing in general so thats my way of coping on why i dont. i really really love anime my fav has to be ONE piece! i also like other animes but by far this is my top 1 and also code geasee lolllllllll. music wise I LOVE bleood , zatru, kuru, feng, and beabadoobee . ive made some friends along the way when i sit and rot on my pc alot a great guy ive met is named amian
amazing guy , even tho hes a pedophile its okay hes a chill one and hes accepted where im at was a former really epic awesome roblox guy owned alot of cool things such as usernames and pulled alot of online girls with them, i wish i had this kind of life style he had pulling in all the women which why i stayed with him and learned how he did it which i never did, Its okay hes still a great guy and im still a loser.

Other people ive met along the way is a another pedophile named sebastian_a*****, as u can see im friends with alot of pedos but they all chill this guy put me onto osu lovely game and is prolly one of my favorites hobbys! he also had really nice usernames like @day on osu, he sold it to a guy on a forum site where they sell those kind of things, he taught me how to use me voice meter sets which he gifted me a go xlr for christmas in 2024 as a present even tho i havent gotten him nothing hes fine with it and i fw him for that, he also really good friends with this “ryan pepper” guy and jayce. i dont speak to this “RP” (what they call him) alot but i do so speak to jayce rarely so often and he is a nice guy as well put me onto bleood and other more artist and achrive wear which is REALLY DOPE! i cant afford those i usally just wear unbranded things and shaqs. There is alot of people to note in here but my fatass hands + fingers are getting unhealthy and tired while typing all this, this is the most exercise ive done in months and im proud of myself for it ive came a long way. :100_emoji:


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